day of.... right?!

rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreginald!! i disagree.

i'm eating my last bowl of cookies'n cream icedcream. it is fantastic. there is oreo in my teeth and i don't even care. mebe i'll go on a cookies'n cream bender and try it wherever i go. so this is not my last bowl. by any near estimate. and i'm listening to the commencement. you couldn't set up a better pre-4am situation if you TRIED.

my bags are packed. that's a mighty thrilling feeling. i've cleaned up all i've destroyed, burned what i don't want to remember, and am tweaking my last list of things to do before i exit for awhile. next up... write marc. sleep may fit in there somewhere but everytime i think about it, those thoughts scatter away like sawdust when you blow on it and it gets into your eyes. i can't forget to enjoy my last few hours at home. they are always the hardest because i know i'm not gonna see them in awhile. i'll miss what goes on. i'll miss the smell of home. but home will always be here waiting for me... and that is the most grounding reality of all my wandering thoughts about securities and strongholds.

which also gets me super excited to get on my way. there is always a point at which i dread saying goodbye; my mom will cry and my dad will pray and that will make me cry. but after... after i turn my back for the final time and i go through security and out of eyesight, i'm always strongly overcome with an intense feeling of independence and freedom. this time i imagine it'll be far stronger than anytime before, because this is something so much newer and scarier and exciting than anything else i've ever done. then after takeoff hopefully i'll pass right out and quickly and conveniently wake up in NZ. if only...

this adventure mood seems to desire light, happy and soulful music. i am listening to Red, which is none of those minus mebe souldufl, except replace it with passionate.. angrily sounding passionate.. but for later! i think some obidiah parker... john mayer... florez for SURE... layovercarefree music. whilst reading. or tattoo drawing. something that will forever be remembered as the biggest travel day of my life so far.

its been about a year since these travel thoughts have been brewing. i'm extremely blessed to have been given this opportunity to drop life for a second to get better equipped to serve God on a daily basis. if you pray, pray that i have a safe trip, and that i would stay focussed on why i am going to NZ. i have a weakness for cute girls. pray that i would stay grounded and not let my emotions get the best of my reason and prevent me from growing. i'm going to try to update this as much as possible, and keep whoever cares informed on how i'm doing. hehehehe.... cute girls...