thinking hard HARD day

very... convicting thinking hard HARD day... i mean stats are one thing, revelation and understanding are another. all stats aside (one mean shove towards stats.. screw them all in all directions) the only way things are going to change is if we wake up and decide to change them. i like the phrase your either a missionary or not.. could be said about being a christian or not. if you are drawing yourself closer to God, he's gonna break your heart for what breaks his. people. nations. if your not drawing closer your getting further away... mebe one day i'll write down the lecture we got today but mebe someday i wont' and mebe someday i'll just talk about it with you. i'm sad not more people comment because i would LOVE to have discussions on here about what you think. be warned if you come with the attitude of a rich fat white dude who once said 'young man, if God wanted us to help the heathens he'd do it himself' then we will have a ton of fun discussion on how you suck. not judgingly, fully in love, but i will rebuke you and will be sad at your selfishness. we could change the world, if only we will. (so has been class so far this week. the most learning and discussion out of any week...) i don't want to piss people off and make lost people .. (well, they can't get more lost, but i don't want to be a road block.) i just want more awareness. that has been something SO key in my growth with God these past years, and its because 1) i asked for it, and 2)i've begun to gain understanding and awareness for the things and situations around me and what God wants done with this knowledge. some would call it wisdom.. flip i would. i do. i want mooore. a double portion. wherever i go it really doesn't matter... if i'm not living as a light i'm helping no one. ooo school is gonna be fun if i go back. (the IF depends on IF i get in or not.. really it should not be hard to get into a school i've been a part of for 2 1/2 years... but IF i don't i'm pretty sure thats Gods way of saying i can't come back yet. sorry... but not sorry. (you knew it'd happen) its not up to me anyways.)

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