what?! thursday?! already?! its still february right?

wrong! its davids birthday soon. madness. 19. madness. february is too short for its own good anyways. but good things happen either way i guess. its been very chill. pfft wrong, its been intense and exhausting this week. i always feel churched out before a base meeting or intercession or whatever but it is never a regret that i go. i just have to right my attitude and such. i'm learning a lot about attitude... it determines so much.

i'm also learning i'm a man of subtleties.. little things sway me in good ways. whether it be God telling me something... something someone says or does to or for me... the art of being subtle is something i appreciate so much. its just so delicate and beautiful... yeah. our group is going through a lot of bonding right now with mandy. we have 2 lectures with her today, and none of us mind. it'll be sad when she leaves, cuz we've learned so much already and parting with someone who has so much practical knowledge is always as hard as her challenges have been. today went out for half hour to try to just listen... i failed of course, but it also made me realize good things, and that my distractions weren't even distractions, but subtle hints and reminders that i need to hang on.. keep goin... mandy reminded me of elijah seein a small tiny cloud in the sky and that was Gods sign to him. and like i said before about the mountain an the fire an the storm and the whisper... just so perfect! she told me i see the fingerprints of God, and that is probably how God will interact with me because he's personal like that. she had picked up an acorn earlier, and said its like the acorn... small, simple and the last thing you would expect to turn into a huge strong giant oak tree. practical and simple.. dang yes.

we also had a discussion on swearing during break. we decided the C work is the most offensive word ever. don't use it.