flippin finally day

i went to the waterfall today! i thought it was gonna be a snappin big group of us, but it was just me'n tyler. which turned out to be way better, cuz we explored way more that we woulda with more people. we went up the river bed then once we got to the base of the falls, we climbed up an around to the second level of the waterfall... i felt like frodo, all barefoot and climbing through mud and sharp rocks.. it was an epic day of rest. the guys secret project is working out pretty well too... gonna be a good inheritance to the next DTS men. pounded out my CIR.. it was a productive sunday.

today we started spiritual warfare. oh my this's gonna be an intense week.. baryll started ministering to us this week as well. more holy spirit filling and anointing for intercession! we got in line. i was sure i needed baryll to pray for me because she has a ton of authority (spiritually speaking) and is just very very gifted in prayer. buuut i think i quickly dismissed these thoughts because i realized we all have this authority, and that it wasn't up to one person to release them upon me. so after this realization nick walked directly to me ( i was in the middle of the line for people waiting to get prayed for ) and he said that he felt like he was supposed to pray for me.. so he went straight on! and this whole day i have been thinking that inside of my mind i've been holding on to far too many doubts that have accumulated over the years (doubts of my inability to feel anything the spirit gives me (other than sleep)) and all of these mental blocks that have been plaguing me. so i told them to go away. then a voice inside me said to say it out loud (like we had just been taught... reject, renounce, rebuke, and out loud because that has more authority). so i did, but i muttered it under my breath, and the voice got louder and said c'mon... don't be ashamed (ashamed as i had just told myself i didn't mind being foolish for God) so i started rejecting renouncing and rebuking the mental blocks in my head that allowed me to accept authority and the spirit.. an i started crying, an i just kept pouring out passionate words at those stupid mental blocks.. an those tears each felt like doubts leaving me. it felt amazing.. then i stopped crying and i just felt... really strong and confident. i got so deep into my head i lost a little bit of balance because no thought was going to my legs to stand up.. so i sat down an prayed for awhile.. but yeah... i don't know what anyone else had going on (other'n than kristen, but thats between him an God) but it was an amazing first day with baryll.... super excited for what else gonna happen this week. woo. i'm tired.