grumpy people suck day

for serious. control emotions and let that anger slide. not a ton of it here, but just wishing it to the past when men became little girls in grumpyness. we've all done it, so lets not anymore. whooo to the whoooooooo

got a new internet card. numero 4.. gotta stop using it so much. buuuut... gotta keep updated! we talked a lot about outreach last night at small group, and were most definitely going to fiji, so we talked about culture and our expectations and sulus and what not... oh yes, its gonna be a very commando experience. there will be nudity in our sulu noobyness i'm sure... also, i'm not gonna be able to have contact with anything or anybody for two months. sooooo... send me your updates via thought tossing powers. the harder you think, the faster i'll get them. bahaha. mebe i'll get to use the phone once in awhile, but there most likely won't be any internet at all. pretty much i'm gonna disappear off the face of civilization for a wee bit. but whatevs, more focus for me i spose. less distraction, more interaction with LIFE.

jono is kicking my buttox. father heart of God is an intense subject... it all leads back to the father, whom Jesus taught. its so good... and next week will be spiritual warfare, but already were touching on it. there is always a battle... i'm feeling really excited to either go fight, or go home and wake people up to the fight. like... really wake people up. i fully feel my art is gonna have more purpose now... goin back to school is gonna be totally different.

i love my sisters. i love my brothers, but i LOVE my sisters. they've been all suspicious for the past few days/nights, leaving trampoline nights early, and missing out on playing mission impossible... just wait they would say.. just wait. i friggen hate waiting. but! waiting ended during a man-beef-sesh, in which we were bonding through anger towards certain authorities and boundaries... but then we were kicked in the face with individual letters written together by the girls for all 7 of us guys. it was such an encouragement.. each so personal, and full of love and kindness. they love us! and we love them. but now they have started a love war, and i'm pretty sure 2 of them are gonna end up pregnant. NAWWW lies you sickos. were just gonna have sibling love wars. our loving revenge will be sweet...

i took a ton of music from john-mark and nik today.. loooots of metal and screaming.. buuut i'm thinking some of it has to go cuz it makes me angry, and i don't like to be controlled by music.. therefore some of it must GO. but i have s'more anathallo.. which always fills me entirely with joy. and other stuff i was just missing, like some solid jimmy eat world, seven places, flight of the conchords and other essentially important musical brain food.

pray for revelation and wisdom.

i must poop.